Chopped Liver

I really hate this. I thought I found a community where maybe I could relate to at least one other person like me but instead I just find myself feeling ridiculed. Where I'm having issues with small things in the church and just following "commandments" others of the community were only having issues with teachings of the Gospel.

Not that I feel like their issues are not important in the least, but I feel like I'm not important, like my issues aren't important. Compared to some issues, I feel like mine could be miniscule, but I still find it an issue and a struggle to deal with every day. I was given advice from one person who advised I just do what I think is right and follow the path of the church. Ya, because if it were that easy I wouldn't be going to a community site looking for help. I'm feeling alone and want comfort. I need encouragement, and I'm not getting anything.

I'm just ready to break down and cry. There's only so much I can take on right now. I want to change, I really do, but that requires throwing away pretty much everything about me and my life right now. It's not exactly easy to think about having to completely start over. To scratch plans for yourself so that you can be something new.

I just feel so belittled right now and it's hard for me to deal with. I just want someone to understand and be there for me and to help me through this.